Sunday, December 12, 2010

13/12/2010

Its been a long time since I have posted but I have had a rough few months.... well may aswell hit the nail on the head, I've got depression.
Now the awkward silence where people go wtf?
No one really believes you when you first say it, its like ok she is just having a bad day today, but no im not unless your days are reeeealy long.
Really im annoyed at one of my friends though, I come out as having depression and all of a sudden she is this poor sad girl with unsolvable family problems. I know I sound a bit bitchy and all like calling her a thunder stealer but I mean what the hell, her life is like sweet. She says she is upset that her dad left, she sees her dad every second weekend and sometimes more and he left when she was 1 maybe even younger, she cant even remember and she complains all the time about how her dad left for london for 3 years and didnt spend time with her. Its like she expects the world to wait on her sometimes. Her dad spent every second of his time with her when he came back and it was like she didnt even give a shit. It bothers me about it and now she cuts because she has "family problems" and the real problem is she is doing it for attention and it pisses me off, there are people out there who actually cut because it is there only escape, its like your mocking them in a way. It fustrates me so bad.
GRRR